no-go

so i didn't get matched for the fellowship. it's kinda weird 'cuz in a way, i think God was preparing me for rejection...while i was in maryland, it was like the desire to go kinda waned, and i wasn't sure if going abroad next year was the best way for me to go. it's interesting because i think God does that a lot for me...helps prepare me so that i'm not totally crushed when a door closes.

still, rejection is never easy to take...so i'm a little bit disappointed, but when i didn't hear from them last week, i figured i didn't get it and prepared myself for it over the weekend. got the official e-mail this morning, which said that it was such an excellent group, they wish they had positions for everybody, yada, yada, yada...also said that there's a slight possibility an opening might come up later, in which case i might get another chance, but i don't think there's a high likelihood of that happening.

thanks so much for your prayers and support, guys! the only problem now is figuring out what to do next year...i kinda put all my eggs in this basket, so now i gotta scramble (get it? i know...argh) to apply for other fellowships and grants...there goes my spring break! ;p

in other news, one of my oldest friends song is in town from malaysia (see pics from previous blog)...i've been forgoing studying to hang out with her (um, yeah, finals this week...whatever), and it's been so much fun hanging out, catching up, and reintroducing her to la (this is the first time in 8 years that she's been back)! there's something about old friends that's so great...