gotta think positive...

so i didn't want to blog such negativitiy, but seeing as i can't seem to think about anything else these days, i guess i should let you guys know what's going on.

my qualifying exam was last wednesday, and there was a take-home portion that was due today. the take-home was okay, but it was the in-class portion that really rocked me. unfortunately, and i'm not just saying this, i don't think that i passed the exam. so i moped around for a few days after that, managed to finish the take-home and turned it in today...and here i am...i'm definitely disappointed, but i'm trying to be okay with it. in the end, it just came down to 4 questions, and i just had a total brain fart on the last question, which is enough to fail. which means that i would have to wait another year until i can take the exam again, and then if i pass that, i can get on with research and everything else. i'm bummed because i feel like it's a waste of a year, and also because i spent my holidays studying, and i have pretty much nothing to show for it, and i really, really, really don't want to have to do that again.

i find out officially within the next few weeks, so it's been a bit torturous waiting around and talking things over with my classmates. can you guys please pray for me? before the test, i was praying for wisdom and knowledge, but now i'm praying for God to impart grace and mercy upon the professors who are grading the exam. at any rate, i'm sloooowly coming to terms with the likelihood that i didn't pass...

hey, at least it's over, right? i feel like i put so much on hold for this test, so i have a ton of things to do, and i'm ready to hang out with y'all again! that is, after i clean my place from top to bottom, get my class schedule in order, make up for missed time at work, go to the dentist, take my car into the dealer (darn check engine light!), run a bunch of other errands...sigh.

okay, it's okay, don't worry about me...i'm okay. :)