so i think i'm going back to school this fall. it's been a weird journey...from being totally against applying this year, to applying just to keep my options open, to thinking that i didn't get in and being strangely disappointed, to now having the opportunity open and planning on returning to school, for a 4-5 year program, no less.

part of me wants to go, but i have to admit that there's another part of me that feels almost...indifferent. i don't know if that's the right word to use in this case, but there's definitely a degree of uncertainty and doubt about whether this is the right course, and do i really, really want to do this? ...but this is my leap of faith, that God's made this opportunity available, and as i head towards it, i trust that He'll make His will clear.